This year has been a rollercoaster for most people, on account of the global pandemic we’re all facing…
But for the relationship between my eldest and I, the pandemic prolonged a situation that started at the beginning of the year, when after a disagreement, she decided she hated me and wanted to go live with her Dad.
My other two kids ended up also spending 3 months at Dad’s house because of the lockdown. Fortunately afterwards they came back to my house and we spent 2 and a half months together during the summer.
There is a contagious virus out there and we’re all indoors, but it’s in the house that I have felt both safe and depressed.
All three kids came back to my house this week. As for my eldest, she was gone for all that time… and now it feels like I’m constantly walking on egg shells…
I started a zoom-based online course called “Talking Teens” and I’ve bought a book called “Blame my Brain” to see if I can learn how to cope with all these changes and challenges.
Kids today reach the tween/teen milestone much earlier than we did. And these days, the way they handle parents is much different too.
I’m trying my best to grow and adapt, to really be the adult in the room and handle my strong emotions without losing it. But it’s hard, it’s a constant pushing of boundaries.
October is a month full of sad memories for me. And even though those memories bring me pain and sorrow, I know they make me grow, and they remind me to be patient and kind.
Tomorrow is another day. May I be blessed with the courage to face it boldly, with kindness and resolve.